4 years ago I saved up everything I could, cut down on the mojitos, and a few months later I…. quit the yachts and headed to Melbourne to set up a base and start studying.
I bought a vitamix before I bought a bed, I was sleeping on the floor, but I could still make green smoothies. I threw out all the sugar in the house, turned vegan, started eating dates and raw desserts and mung bean pasta and nutritional yeast and maca powder, you know the drill. Towards the end of a year studying online at IIN, I got my first two clients who were old friends, and started coaching them on their health.
<<PS – this is part 2 of the post from yesterday>>
But very quickly I realised that A. I couldn’t keep up with being an orthorexic vegan, and B, I’m so all or nothing, I’m the worst person to be coaching people on moderation and health. I’m also a terrible cook, try as I might. BGC will testify – the one time I made him a roast I roasted the chicken upside down and didn’t even realise!
Health coaching was never going to be my thing.
The huge AHA moment for me was when I found myself crying on the floor under my desk with overwhelm, unable to get myself to stop procrastinating, yet way overstressed by the sheer scope of what I was trying to achieve and the weight of the responsibility of it all. I had gone too far to turn back, but I wasn’t sure I could hack it. I just couldn’t stop wasting my days on all the wrong things!
Never mind that being on Tinder was a full-time career for me at the time, and I was also working two part time jobs as a bartender and receptionist.
I decided that control freak though I was, I couldn’t do it alone, so I signed up for a 6 month business coaching mastermind which cost as much as my full year of studies. Early on my business coach asked me what I was coaching my 2 clients on, and I told her as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, oh mindfulness. I explained that it had changed everything about my life.
And she asked me, Andrea, why don’t you be a mindfulness coach?
It was like someone turned on all the lights on in my brain!
Angels descended from the sky and hallelujah was sung.
And so was born my program Bloody Good Life 101 that teaches indecisive overachievers how to tame their minds so they can get clear on what they want to do with their lives.
And now I find myself doing the thing I love more than anything – the thing I had no idea was a “thing” until I found myself doing it.
You don’t need to know where the path leads when you step off one path and onto another.
But if your gut tells you you’re walking down the wrong path, don’t keep walking, try another direction.
If you go wrong in your car, you pull over and do your best to work out where you went wrong, then you turn back, or you take another route entirely.
You might get lost along the way. It might be stressful and scary as hell, you might feel in limbo for a bit, but it’s better than ploughing down the wrong road forever because “you’ve gone too far”.
Don’t feel guilty and fickle for changing your mind all the time – if you can’t stick with something it’s just because you haven’t found the thing you want to do yet.
You can only connect the dots looking backwards, you can never connect the dots looking forwards. – Steve Jobs
You can only see that your whole life path makes complete sense in hindsight, but it will never make complete sense until you’re looking back on it.
Everything I’ve ever done, right down to reading eat pray love and persevering with yoga even though I kind of hated all makes sense to me now, in hindsight.
If you’re feeling stuck – I’d bet you’re following your mind over your gut.
Your mind will always keep you stuck – it’s interested only in your safety, not your happiness.
You may not know what you want to do, but I bet you know what you don’t want to do.
Trust your gut. It already knows the way.
You just have to learn to listen again.
If you just can’t feel it anymore, mindfulness is your guy. It will help you get your over analysing mind out of the way so you can hear the wise dude inside you speak up.